Have you just even laid in the bed at the night and cried ? Cried because of one little thing and then all the sudden everything that's wrong with you and your life pops into your head and makes you cry even more. And you don't know why you can't stop thinking of those bad things but they just keep multiplying.You feel so alone and nothing you can do about it. Its like want someone to come to talk you but you also want to be alone. Everything just feel like it's falling apart. so you just continue to cry and cry.

The worst type of trying is silent one. The one when everyone is asleep. The one where you feel it in your throat and your eyes become blurry from the tears. The one where you just want to scream. The one where you have to hold your breath and grab your stomach to keep quiet. The one you can't breath anymore